This is it

O meu estado de espírito atual é perfeitamente descrito nessa música aqui.

I've lied to you
The same way that I always do
This is the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you

(Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(Everything has to end, you'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwind)
The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

I've tried like you
To do everything you wanted to
This is the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you

     Linkin Park, Pushing me away

Para os que tem insider information sobre o que se trata isso, entendam. Pro resto, basta dizer que I'm okay now. É impressionante como uma simples música consegue explicar direitinho o que uma pessoa está sentindo. That's it. Sem mais fingimento. Cansei de fazer de conta que está tudo ok para evitar atrito. GUESS WHO JUST GOT MEAN.